FALL back.
calling out names,
names that dont recall,
fragments of life,
so long lead.
secret hushes,
claiming feelings,
dreams of a dreaded reality.
living within the realms,
of neon lighted cemetery,
lunar glow,
effervescence,
of the burnt,dried blood.
i find myself stuck,
stuck....
the penthouse,
rusted with the abandoned ghosts,
of our selfish love,
decaying each hour,
as im leading myself,
back to the den,
where i was unwanted.
a bread crumb,
lies awake,
small...fragile,
the withering smell,
of your body..of our fingers,
co-joined,cajoled love,
floats,disappears.
the stale breath,
the sewer underneath,
im a part of this world.
the selfish,hapless world,
faltering..to its deceased self.
fall back,
succumb,
smelter my heart..
i will wander,
wander...away..
the latches on my door,
will be kept open,
my hypocrite self,
will beg no more.
i will wander,
the streets wont care any less.
the shit overflows,
even now,
nothing has changed,
the stinking breath of our parlour,
odorize the fragments,
of my memories.
the wall still creaks,
and the lost man,
will still vomit..
his deranged self,
will lash the girl,
and her cries will still make him laugh.
the canned crap..
stale..
the roses...
decay... .colour lost,
a straitjacket wont help me,
the lunatic has left,
dancing naked,
baking himself in the glares
of the society.
your flesh,
made of serene jealousy,
i donot care about,anymore.
the bitter and hard,
lovemaking,the corrosion of our senses,
tears...copulate,
and you leave.
hopeless fucks jump,
straight into the pit,
anatomy of seized loneliness,
seizes them.
the sirens wails,
i cant sleep.
you sleep,
the ducks of your fairyland,
seize you,
fuck you,
your naked veins,
then bleed.
gastrocyanide,
i seek of.
dreams of a happy suicide,
dreams of a astral diarrhea,
dreams....i fade..
the shit overflows.
scream while masturbate,
scream while copulate,
your robe smells of my used body.
my body,
a tale of dirty birth,
a tale of morbid catastrophe,
the light in the room,
of the old woman,
in the apartment opposite,
slowly dims,
a wail,a cry..
the dogs howl.
fangs out.
a man..lost in his senses,
filled with chaotic mirth,
is seized by the dogs.
a hapless sight.
i think of you,
being seized by hands,
by my hands,
of some other..hands..
sinking hands...
sinking in your flesh.
the smell overflows and theres blood,
stained on the hands.
de-arranged you.
the letter you left.
ashes of wish i smoke.
flames of which i watch..
smoke of which i inhale..
im reeking of melancholy,
of your folly..
someone kills someone.
demented place..
demented me..
I call out to you.
call out.
the answering machine..
you are out,
somewhere..
somewhere..in those seedy alleys,
where you meet the needy,
greedy,
the hotel room stinks of your lust.
then..
you will leave.
to cry some more.
then..
you will wait,
for the ducks.
the fairytale ducks.
the fag dizzying your senses.
you will be led by them..
you will be gone.
I turn out the lights.
vomit out,
your name,
your smell..
pop a pill..
wait for the sleep to come,
shut down my tired system.
senses fail..
i fall apart..
de-arranged me.
calling out names,
names that dont recall,
fragments of life,
so long lead.
secret hushes,
claiming feelings,
dreams of a dreaded reality.
living within the realms,
of neon lighted cemetery,
lunar glow,
effervescence,
of the burnt,dried blood.
i find myself stuck,
stuck....
the penthouse,
rusted with the abandoned ghosts,
of our selfish love,
decaying each hour,
as im leading myself,
back to the den,
where i was unwanted.
a bread crumb,
lies awake,
small...fragile,
the withering smell,
of your body..of our fingers,
co-joined,cajoled love,
floats,disappears.
the stale breath,
the sewer underneath,
im a part of this world.
the selfish,hapless world,
faltering..to its deceased self.
fall back,
succumb,
smelter my heart..
i will wander,
wander...away..
the latches on my door,
will be kept open,
my hypocrite self,
will beg no more.
i will wander,
the streets wont care any less.
the shit overflows,
even now,
nothing has changed,
the stinking breath of our parlour,
odorize the fragments,
of my memories.
the wall still creaks,
and the lost man,
will still vomit..
his deranged self,
will lash the girl,
and her cries will still make him laugh.
the canned crap..
stale..
the roses...
decay... .colour lost,
a straitjacket wont help me,
the lunatic has left,
dancing naked,
baking himself in the glares
of the society.
your flesh,
made of serene jealousy,
i donot care about,anymore.
the bitter and hard,
lovemaking,the corrosion of our senses,
tears...copulate,
and you leave.
hopeless fucks jump,
straight into the pit,
anatomy of seized loneliness,
seizes them.
the sirens wails,
i cant sleep.
you sleep,
the ducks of your fairyland,
seize you,
fuck you,
your naked veins,
then bleed.
gastrocyanide,
i seek of.
dreams of a happy suicide,
dreams of a astral diarrhea,
dreams....i fade..
the shit overflows.
scream while masturbate,
scream while copulate,
your robe smells of my used body.
my body,
a tale of dirty birth,
a tale of morbid catastrophe,
the light in the room,
of the old woman,
in the apartment opposite,
slowly dims,
a wail,a cry..
the dogs howl.
fangs out.
a man..lost in his senses,
filled with chaotic mirth,
is seized by the dogs.
a hapless sight.
i think of you,
being seized by hands,
by my hands,
of some other..hands..
sinking hands...
sinking in your flesh.
the smell overflows and theres blood,
stained on the hands.
de-arranged you.
the letter you left.
ashes of wish i smoke.
flames of which i watch..
smoke of which i inhale..
im reeking of melancholy,
of your folly..
someone kills someone.
demented place..
demented me..
I call out to you.
call out.
the answering machine..
you are out,
somewhere..
somewhere..in those seedy alleys,
where you meet the needy,
greedy,
the hotel room stinks of your lust.
then..
you will leave.
to cry some more.
then..
you will wait,
for the ducks.
the fairytale ducks.
the fag dizzying your senses.
you will be led by them..
you will be gone.
I turn out the lights.
vomit out,
your name,
your smell..
pop a pill..
wait for the sleep to come,
shut down my tired system.
senses fail..
i fall apart..
de-arranged me.